Book Review: After She Left

After She Left by Claire Amarti had a lot of potential, but overall I felt the writing was a bit too simple. It was a nice, easy, quick read, but there was just something lacking for me. There were choices that the characters made that just confused me at times and I don’t know exactly what it was, but there was just something missing for me.

Gillian’s sister, Abigail, is gone. On December 26th, Abigail walks out of her house, located in the suburbs of Westchester, New York. Only leaving behind a strange note on the kitchen table. She is also leaving behind her ten year old son, Sam. Abigail has always been a little bit unreliable, but she has not done anything like this since Sam was born ten years ago. Now Gillian has to take care of Sam, while also trying to figure out where her sister went and when she will be back. At this time though, Gillian is also dealing with issues at home with her husband. His behavior has been odd and he has been out late into the night. Gillian has to now face all of these issues head on and when she discovers why her sister left, the truth will upend her whole world.

I had a lot of hope with this novel. I really was into in the beginning and I was eager to find out the ending, but when the truth came out about where Abigail was, it honestly fell really flat for me. I felt like there was a lot of build up for nothing really. In some regards I understand it, but overall I was pretty disappointed with this book. I think it was an easy read that for the most part kept me entertained though. I just wish there had been more to the story.

Overall I gave this book 2.5/5 stars. It definitely was not my favorite, but by no means did I hate the book. Like I mentioned earlier, it just kind of fell flat for me and left me longing for something else, and not in the satisfying way. I would definitely read another book by Claire Amarti because I did enjoy the real life feel to it, it just was not my favorite book or something I would ever long to read again.

Book Review: All The Forgivenesses

I absolutely loved the novel All The Forgivenesses by Elizabeth Hardinger. It told the story of hardships, and trauma, and family, and addiction, and sacrifice, in such a beautiful way. All of the experiences of the main character were real and raw and the reader could feel the pain she was feeling.

On a farm in rural Kentcuky, 15 year old Albertina, also known as Bertie, Winslow has learned a lot from her mom, Polly. She knows how to take care of the house, cook, and most of the chores, but what she does not really know, is how to take care of children, how a mother should. When Polly is overtaken by an illness and dies, Bertie takes on the care of her four younger siblings. No matter how hard she tries though it is all just too much. Her father is also an alcoholic who is unreliable. Bertie makes the difficult decision to break up the family, in order for them all to survive and thrive. She sends the younger boys to live with one of her older brothers and she takes the girls. Bertie marries young and is grateful she found a husband willing to take on the care of her younger sisters. But Bertie quickly realizes marriage can’t fix everything, and it seems the grief and heartache from her past will always catch up with her.

Bertie was a very well written character. She was strong, but also vulnerable. The pain she experienced throughout the novel was palpable. Throughout a majority of the novel Bertie was only 15 and at times I would forget that because she had to take on so much. Lately I have been really loving historical fiction and coming of age novels, and this one did not disappoint. It was exactly what I needed.

I gave this book 4/5 stars. I would not hesitate to recommend it, especially if you like historical fiction and coming of age novels. This book was included with my kindle unlimited and I just randomly picked it one day and I am so glad that I did. The cover is what initially drew me in and from the beginning I could not stop reading it. I highly recommend this novel if you have not read it.

Book Review: The Book of Lost Friends

I cannot stop thinking about The Book of Lost Friends by Lisa Wingate. This novel was so good. It was beautifully written and left a lasting impact on me. It jumped between time periods which I loved, and all of the characters were strong and sympathetic.

Louisiana 1875, Hannie, Juneau Jane, and Lavinia are on a journey together heading for Texas. For Juneau Jane and Lavinia this journey is for an inheritance from their father, for Hannie, this journey is to find her family who she was separated from before the end of slavery. All Hannie wants to know, is if her family is still out there somewhere. Louisiana 1987, first year teacher, Benedetta Silva is working in a poor rural school. The town is not very welcoming of newcomers and Benny feels as if this is all too much. She doesn’t know how to reach her students, nor can she begin to comprehend their poverty-stricken lives. But amidst all of this, lies the history of three young women on a long ago journey, and a hidden book that could change everything and help Benny finally be able to reach her students.

I found this novel to be so interesting and different. I loved that it jumped back and forth between time periods and that the characters mentioned in 1875 were being connected to the characters from 1987. I found that with it jumping back and forth between time periods, it made the book go faster because it almost felt like two different novels. This book also contained real letters from newspapers in 1875. These letters and articles were known as The Lost Friends where people would write letters looking for their family, whom they were separated from during slavery.

I gave this book 4.5/5 stars. I would highly recommend this novel. I have been on a bit of a historical fiction kick lately and this novel made me just want to keep reading historical fiction. I honestly kind of randomly bought this book and I am so glad that I did. It was a super fast read for me, but I was able to take away so much from it. If you are looking for a good historical fiction novel, I would not hesitate to recommend this book.

Book Review: Where the Crawdads Sing

I feel like I am kind of late to the game with Where The Crawdads Sing by Delia Owens, but I am so glad I finally read it. I can’t believe it took me so long to read this book. This book is a story of survival, but that is not all. It is also a story of resiliency, heartbreak, trauma, and ultimately love.

For years, Kya Clark, has been dubbed as “The Marsh Girl” by the residents of Barkley Cove. Kya has lived her life in the marsh by herself, as her family has one by one abandoned her. When Chase Andrews, who is a popular town resident, is found dead, the community of Barkley Cove immediately turn to Kya as the culprit. Kya though, is not what everyone believes, she is smart, and gentle, and kind. She has the skills to live in solitude forever, but she discovers that she does not really want to be alone forever. Kya opens herself up to two young men from town who are both intrigued by her, but then the unthinkable happens.

This book holds a lot. It is a historical fiction, coming of age novel, while also being a murder mystery novel. On top of that, romance is also thrown in and plays a big part in this novel. This book beautifully written and Kya Clark is such a strong character. Her growth throughout the novel was just so well written. And I felt the ending of the novel was perfect. It didn’t leave me longing for more. I found I got everything I could have wanted out of this book.

I gave this book 4.5/5 stars. Like I mentioned earlier, I absolutely loved this novel and I am so glad I finally read it. I would not hesitate to recommend this book to anyone. I think everyone could get something out of it and enjoy it.

Book Review: The Grave Tender

At this point I have read quite a few books by Eliza Maxwell and I have to say The Grave Tender may be one of my favorites by her. It was super dark and chilling, but also incredibly interesting, and I all of the characters were well written and different.

Hadley Dixon feels haunted by her childhood in East Texas. People say that Hadley’s mother, Winnie, was never quite right, but one night irreparable act by her mother, shatters Hadley’s life forever. The aftershock after that night will haunt Hadley throughout her life, but she also knows the secrets and lies had all started long before that night. Now it is years later and widowed and pregnant Hadley is returning to her childhood home. Things don’t feel the same as before with a local boy’s disappearance hanging in the air with no answers. The townspeople are still whispering about Hadley’s reclusive Uncle Eli, and Hadley’s grandmother and her father, who are everything to her, avoid all of her questions. Hadley needs to figure out if this is a safe space to raise her children, but all of these questions begin shining light on all of the lies that have been surrounding Hadley her whole life.

As mentioned earlier, this book was really dark, but it was so interesting and I could not stop reading it. I would add a trigger warning because this book does deal with sexual assault. Throughout the whole novel I didn’t know who to trust. From the first page I was hooked in and I think I read the book in about a day. Hadley was a really strong character and all of the characters were well written. Reading this novel made me want to just keep reading books by Eliza Maxwell.

I gave this book 4.5/5 stars. I could not put this book down and when it was over I wished that there was more. I wanted to keep reading about Hadley and her life. I wouldn’t hesitate to recommend this book or any of Eliza Maxwell’s novels.

Book Review: Somebody’s Daughter

Somebody’s Daughter is a beautiful memoir by Ashley C. Ford. It was a quick read, but very powerful, and exquisitely written. I would not hesitate to read this book again, nor would I hesitate to recommend it.

Ashley’s father has been incarcerated for most of her life and for as long as she can remember she has put him on a pedestal. She only has vague memories of seeing him in person, but she feels like he is the only person who really truly understands her. She believes she understands him as well. She believes one day they will be reunited and she will finally feel complete. The problem with this though is that he is in prison, she has no idea when he will get out, and she also does not know what he did to end up in prison. Through her difficulties at home with her mother, dealing with the aftermath of being raped, and through puberty and poverty, Ashley kind of leans on the image of her father as a comfort and as encouragement. When Ashley finally finds out why her father is really in prison that is kind of where the story really begins for her.

For being a relatively short book there was a still a whole lot to unpack in this memoir. I honestly cannot stop thinking about it because there were things in it that I related to, other things I was able to learn from. One of the things I personally love about reading memoirs is I feel that you can learn a lot from them, but you also can find yourself in them as well and learn from that and also know that you are not alone. Even though your experience is unique to you it is also comforting to know someone else has gone through something similar and you are not alone even if it feels as if you are.

I gave this book 5/5 stars and like I mentioned earlier, I would not hesitate to recommend it. I honestly will probably read this book multiple times. I am so glad I picked this book in my Book of the Month box a couple of months ago.

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Gaslighting

It was supposed to be some sort of an apology; it started out as an apology-but somewhere along the way it turned into a list of things that is wrong with me; the sink has been dripping throughout this entire conversation- the longer the conversation goes on- the louder the sink seems to drip; you are getting closer and closer to me; your breath is hot on my face- and I cannot pinpoint the exact smell- but I do not like it; I am staring at the wall behind you- it is not particularly interesting- but it is better than staring into your eyes; a flicker of flames seem to be dancing inside of them; in this moment your eyes hold so much hatred; I do not remember ever seeing love in your eyes; I am sure it was there at some point- but it must have been long ago; thunder is rolling in the distance as wind whips across the trees; I do not see a way out of whatever this is; I can feel my lip quivering; I berate myself in my head for showing even the slightest sign of weakness; like an animal- I know you can smell fear.

Book Review: Underneath the Sycamore Tree

Underneath the Sycamore Tree by B. Celeste was both a hit and a miss for me. There were some aspects of it that I really enjoyed, but there were other aspects that I could just not get behind. Overall, I think I would recommend it, but I also had some issues with it as well.

Emerson’s father left when she was very young. Her twin sister ended up dying from an incurable autoimmune disease. Then her mother started breaking down. Emerson was then diagnosed with the same autoimmune disease that took her sister. Emerson realized her mother could not handle all of this so she moves in with her dad and his new family, which includes a new stepmom and a new stepbrother. Her stepbrother Kaiden, is the only person who has made her feel normal, but also, hated, cared for, loathed, and even loved. Her and Kaiden form an unbreakable bond, but Emerson knows that nothing good ever lasts.

I think from the description you can kind of see where things are going to go with Emerson and Kaiden. I thought the story was very interesting, and raw, and real, but I could not get behind her falling in love with her stepbrother. I understand that they have pretty much just met and it is not the same as growing up together, but all in all, he is still her stepbrother. There were so many aspects of this book that I loved, but I was really having a hard time with Kaiden and Emerson falling in love. There was just something about it that made me uncomfortable.

I gave this book 3/5 stars. I would recommend it even though I had my own issues with it. I think overall the story is important and it talks about real problems and you see a lot of character development from all of the characters. I even felt most of the plot was really strong. The biggest issue I had was that I could just not get past the fact that they were essentially siblings. I do think the book is worth it if you like romance or contemporary fiction. This book kind of comes down to what you like and also your own biases.

Book Review: The Maidens

If you read and enjoyed The Silent Patient by Alex Michealides I highly recommend his book The Maidens. I chose The Maidens in my Book of the Month box a while back and I am so glad I decided to add it. The book was very different and I really enjoyed it.

Mariana is absolutely certain that Edward Fosca is a murderer. He is a Greek Tragedy professor at Cambridge University and is adored by the staff and the students. He is particularly adored by the members of a secret society made up of female students known as The Maidens. One member of The Maidens, Zoe, is found murdered one day. Zoe is a friend of Mariana’s niece and Mariana is convinced that Edward has something to do with Zoe’s murder, despite his alibi. When another body is found shortly after Zoe, Mariana does everything she can to try and prove that Edward Fosca is the murderer.

I thought this book was really well written and it kept me guessing throughout the whole novel. Mariana did get on my nerves a little bit throughout the book, but I almost feel like she was supposed to. There were a lot of characters in this book which at times made things a bit confusing. Overall I really enjoyed it though. I also liked that the book had really short chapters because I feel the shorter chapters made me read it more quickly.

I gave this book 3.5/5 stars. It was not my favorite book ever, but I would definitely recommend it. I would especially recommend it if you have already read The Silent Patient. I think the novel had a lot of good moments, it was written well, the characters were strong, and it moved along quickly. If you are looking for a good mystery or thriller to read next I would recommend The Maidens.

Book Review: The Stillwater Girls

The Stillwater Girls by Minka Kent had so much potential, but the last plot twist just completely ruined the entire novel for me. Up until pretty much the very end I loved this book. I found it to be intriguing and pretty different from a lot of books I have read, but then the ending came and I just could not get behind the final plot twist that took place.

Wren is 19 years old and along with her two sisters, Sage and Evie, they were raised in the middle of the woods completely off the grid and in isolation. When Evie becomes gravely ill, their mother leaves with her to get help in a nearby town. Evie and their mother never return though. As months pass, Wren and Sage begin to run out of supplies and a brutal winter is on its way. Then one day a strange man shows up looking for their mother, but he refuses to leave without the two girls. In order to escape, Wren and Sage must break their mothers biggest rule: to never go beyond the forest. With this escape they will discover everything that has been hidden from them and all of the secrets that have left them isolated their whole lives.

Like I mentioned earlier, when I first started this novel I really enjoyed it. From the first page I was hooked in, but the biggest downfall for me was the ending. I just cannot move past that ending. It was a terrible ending. I hate to be so critical of it, but it was absolutely ridiculous. I know it is fiction, but I felt like the novel was supposed to be realistic and it just wasn’t. No matter how I thought about it I just could not wrap my head around it.

I gave this book 1.5/5 stars. I liked the beginning so that is why I did not give it just 1 star. I so wish it ended differently because I would not hesitate to recommend this book if the ending was different. At this point though, I would say not to waste your time. There are much better books out there. I don’t have anything against this author. I enjoyed her writing style and I even enjoyed most of the book. I just wish the ending had been thought out a little bit better.

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My Body: Maybe My Choice?

The world collectively goes to sleep- as my nightmares cast shadows on the walls; tonight- the same as so many other nights- I am completely alone; last night- I dyed a strip of my hair- hoping to reclaim a part of myself; tonight- I will dye another- hoping this tiny act of rebellion will help me claim my body back; it is funny- yet not funny at all- that the only thing separating me from him- are these streaks of blonde and blue throughout my hair; the only thing separating me from him- are my tattoos and my piercings; because in all of these- I had a choice; choice- the most important thing a human can have; while the world falls asleep- I will be planning out the next way I will be able to make a choice about my own body; I will watch as my nightmares play out in front of me; tomorrow- I will belong to no one and everyone.

Book Review: The Lake House

I absolutely loved the novel The Lake House by Kate Morton. It was beautifully written, had multiple character perspectives, and the mystery of it all kept you guessing right up to the very end. I look forward to reading more of Morton’s books in the future.

In June of 1933, 11 month old, Theo Edevane, goes missing from his crib during his family’s Midsummer Eve party at their country home called, Loeanneth. After an extensive search Theo is still missing and there is no evidence or clues to where he could be. The Edevane family decides to close up the country home and return to London, never returning to Loeanneth again. Seventy years later, detective Sadie Sparrow goes to her grandfathers cottage in Cornwall after a troubling case. While there she discovers the story of Theo Edevane and she cannot seem to let it go. Alice Edevane, who was 16 at the time of her brothers disappearance, is now living in London and is a famous author of murder mystery novels. Alice has spent her life trying to escape what happened in the summer of 1933, but when Sadie Sparrow starts reaching out and asking her questions about her family’s past, all of the secrets Alice has spent seventy years trying to escape from, threaten to come out.

This novel kept me guessing, even up to the final pages. Right when I thought I had it figured out, something else completely unexpected would happen, and I would be left trying to figure it out all over again. I also loved that this book jumped back and forth between time periods. It was interesting getting to know the characters at the different stages of their life. Every single character in this novel held a secret. That kept me guessing throughout the whole book because when one secret was revealed, another secret would end up coming out. This book had it all. It had romance, mystery, family drama, historical references, etc.

I gave this book 4/5 stars and would highly recommend it. I cannot wait to read more books by Morton and I feel as if I will love them as much as I loved this one. If you like romance, historical fiction, and mystery, this is the book for you.

Book Review: The Caretakers

The Caretakers by Eliza Maxwell was a huge hit for me. Every novel I have read by Maxwell so far, I have loved. There is just something about them that makes me fall in love with the book right from the beginning. Even though there are clues that most of them are set in modern times, there is something about them that gives them an older, historical fiction type vibe.

Tessa Shepherd is a filmmaker who helped free a man who she believed was wrongly imprisoned for murder. When he ends up killing again, Tessa’s reputation is destroyed and she is racked with guilt. To add on to the emotional turmoil, her mother also suddenly passes away and tension with her sister, Margot, begin to escalate. Tessa learns of a strange inheritance from her mother. An old, isolated estate known as Fallbrook. The mansion has been abandoned, except by two elderly sisters who are there as caretakers of the old home. The caretakers are also guarding a past full of secrets and mysteries.

I absolutely loved this book. I could not put it down. The characters were so interesting, the plot kept me guessing, and the author did a great job of describing everything so vividly. I almost felt like I was there. I could picture everything so clearly. I wish I could read this book again for the first time.

I gave this book 5/5 stars. I would love to read it again in the future, but I know I am going to lose that original feel of reading it for the first time, but I still think I will love it just as much. As mentioned earlier, I have enjoyed every single one of Maxwell’s novels I have read so far and I look forward to reading more.

Book Review: Bloodline

Bloodline by Jess Lourey was a very intriguing and different read. The whole time I was reading it I felt as if I was watching an episode of The Twilight Zone. I could not put this book down. Honestly, it was a little bit creepier than most books I read, but I thoroughly enjoyed it.

This story is inspired by real events. Joan Harken is a pregnant journalist, who is excited, but also cautious, about moving back to her Fiance’s Minnesota hometown, Lilydale. Lilydale’s motto is: “Come Home Forever” and Joan feels it couldn’t be more inviting. Except, something about it all feels off. She feels the friendliness is almost intrusive. Joan feels like everything she is doing is being watched and tracked. An archaic organization holds the town in thrall and so does the mystery of a little boy who vanished decades ago. Her fiance just keeps telling her she is paranoid, but Joan feels like she may have moved to the deadliest small town on earth.

This book was very different from a lot of the books I read. It was almost was too creepy for me, but at the same time I could not put it down. I just needed to know what was going on and what was going to happen. This novel almost made me feel like I was being paranoid about things.

I gave this book 5/5 stars. I would highly recommend it. Also, if you are a fan of The Twilight Zone I think you would like this book. The characters were interesting and unreliable, it was creepy, mysterious, it made me think throughout the whole novel because I had no idea what was coming. I can’t recommend this book enough. I also read Unspeakable Things by this author and I highly recommend that book as well. I hope in the future Jess Lourey writes more novels because I would 100% read them.

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I am Everything (And Nothing)

*April is an important month to me. Not only is it National Poetry Month, but it is also Sexual Assault Awareness Month. These two events collide in my world in an unfortunate way, but I am taking that pain and turning it in to something, that I hope in a way, can be beautiful. I am also taking control of what happened every time I write a poem. I know that what I write is not for everyone and I respect that, but I hope people can respect me and understand why I am writing these poems. Thank you to those who read and support my poetry and have nothing but positive things to say.*

Tonight when I cry the whole world will fall to its knees; tonight everyone will know the pain I feel; behind these walls I know I am nothing- but I try to pretend I am everything; when I cry tonight I will not promise myself this will be the last time; there is no shame in crying; no shame in reaching deep into yourself and prying out the broken; when I cry- do not tell me everything is okay- because nothing is okay right now; right now- my body needs to fall apart- in order to put herself back together; tonight- my body belongs to me- I will cherish every second she belongs solely to myself; the walls surround me; create a false hope of safety; the world outside is so big; behind these walls I know I am nothing- but I try to pretend I am everything.

March Reading Wrap-up

With today being the start of a new month, it is that time again to look back on all of the books I read last month. Today’s post is dedicated to my March reading wrap-up! I kind of had a slow start to reading this month so I ended up only reading 7 books. The 7 books I read last month were:

  1. Underneath the Sycamore Tree by B. Celeste
  2. The Broken Girls by Simone St. James
  3. Nine Perfect Strangers by Liane Moriarty
  4. Crossing to Safety by Wallace Stegner
  5. My Daughter’s Mistake by Kate Hewitt
  6. The Art of Racing in the Rain by Garth Stein
  7. This Beautiful Life by Helen Schulman

These books were definitely a mix across genres. I kind of jumped all over the place last month. My favorite books I read last month are The Broken Girls and The Art of Racing in the Rain. I absolutely loved both of these novels. I was able to finish them both within about two days. I already wrote my review on The Broken Girls but keep an eye out for The Art of Racing in the Rain because that review will be coming soon. I would highly recommend both of these novels if you have not read them yet.

My least favorite book was easily This Beautiful Life. I had a lot of issues with that novel and I almost stopped reading it a couple of times. I will do a longer review on that book soon, but I will say here, I would not recommend that book. I know some people loved it, but I had issues with it.

Overall, I would say it was a pretty good reading month for me. I am hoping to read more this month and I look forward to seeing what my new favorites are at the end of April!